Joyful Ruins

Saturday of Easter weekend is always a weird day for me. I never really know how to act, what to do. Good Friday we have church services, sometimes we even have school off. Easter Sunday we have church again and we celebrate with family and friends. However, Saturday is the in between.

How did the disciples, the followers of Jesus, feel in that in between? Despair? Sorrow? Did some of them hold onto hope? I am sure there was a mix of it all for them, though I doubt I’ll ever be able to imagine even an inkling of what they felt knowing their friend, their Messiah, had been crucified and they were alone now.

Yet, I think we all experience that in between.  Have you ever asked God for something and it becomes a waiting game? Maybe you feel discouraged, even hopeless, because He hasn’t seemed to show up. The in between can feel dark and can feel so lonely, even with the Holy Spirit living in you. Sometimes, you can allow your flesh, your mind to imagine you are alone, He has been crucified, the hopes you had are crushed and gone and how can there be something good around the corner?

But, my dear friend, hold on! Hold on and see, because tomorrow is going to be different! Just wait and see what happens next!

I wrote this in my journal this morning, thinking about this in between time:

The night, and even the day is so dark

No one speaks

The only sound a cry

A sigh

A groan

What is next?

Why have You left?

Is this Your plan?

We are utterly alone

All our dreams, hopes

Crushed

There is no good in this

We are tired

It now feels as though

All our work

All our faith

Meant nothing

And here we stand

No!

Here we fall

Defeated

Yet

God, let us wait

Not in sorrow

Not in despair

Let us wait in

Anticipation

Because this cannot be the end

Can it?