Joyful Ruins

Testimony to the work of the Lord.

Two times very clearly, God has changed my heart about something over night.
I don’t think this was by accident either. In both circumstances, I had a very tough decision to make and I had been asking for God’s wisdom and will over it for days, maybe weeks. I don’t think it was an accident that God changed my heart because I continously sought His will, not my own.
I’m not saying that in arrogance but in humility.  I had no idea what the right or wrong thing to do was in either situation and so I knew only God could show me the way. I got a variety of answers every day. Sometimes silence, sometimes clarity.
In one situation, I was trying to figure out how to speak to some people close to me about hurts and boundaries. As you can imagine, there were a lot of emotions involved in this situation and my prayers were no less emotional.

I knew there was a temptation to let my emotions control the narrative and my actions unless I surrendered them to the Lord and asked for His wisdom and will.  That’s just what I did. Every morning I asked Him what He wanted me to know about those people, that circumstance. As I said, His answer was different almost every time and sometimes there was no answer at all, just silence. Some days I’d wake up with God’s reassurance that I should tell the people all they had done to hurt me. Some days I had no idea what God wanted me to do. But gradually, God was working on my heart. He knew what journey to healing I needed to take. If He had told me at the beginning of my prayers to let go of so many of the hurts I had experienced, I would not have been ready to receive that. Instead, He walked with me in my emotions, in my stages and led me to His will. One day, I knew with all my heart that telling the people about all my hurt was the right thing to do and then the next day, I knew with great peace that God wanted me to let go of so many of those hurts to Him, and to not even address them. 

Recently I had a similar experience. I have been praying to God about a certain decision in my health challenges, one that has weighed heavily on my heart and mind. I have not stopped asking Him about it because I know He guides in His own way and timing. I hadn’t received much clarity on it, probably because my emotions were too chaotic to hear the answer yet.

Yesterday, I felt like God was leading me one way and I had nearly made the decision to go that direction.  It seemed right, felt right, felt good. Then, this morning, I woke up with total peace to do the complete opposite. I knew this was from God because it had changed overnight. And I absolutely could have just accepted yesterday’s decision but I wanted to know how He was leading me so I asked him again,what He wanted, and He showed me that different way.

I guess what I want to encourage everyone to do is to continue seeking God daily in whatever you are facing, trusting in His daily guidance, never ceasing to ask for His will, and He will lead you to the answer. And you will know it’s from Him, believe me.