Joyful Ruins

Poem #1

Couldn’t stop thinking about you

Such a bad habit I can’t break

Why do you have such power over my mind

Like all I need is one text

And my day will be made

Desperately trying to push it away

But you have seemed to won

Your power over me is too strong

A song coincidentally comes on

A song you sang

It always reminds me of you

And I feel helpless

Even the universe is against me

And wants me to keep thinking about you

But wait…

No

I can choose

I have the power

I can skip this song

I can go to the next chapter

I can stop giving you control

I am not powerless

And I’m breaking this bad habit

I stopped thinking about you

Poem #2

I did not realize

It took my strength

To recognize your woundedness

Before I turned towards myself

Before I valued my own beauty

Strength

Worth

Identity

I let people like you in

Ones who saw me

For what I could give them

Rather than

Looked at me with love

Now I know who I am

What I need

What I want

And it’s not you

You who says words he doesn’t mean

You who likes to tug my heart

All around

A man who doesn’t seem

To understand the meaning

Of friendship

And selflessness

It’s time to say goodbye to you

Your influence

Your ability to make me hurt

I think I’ve found my power again

The power I always had

But was hidden

The power that was overcome

By others

Like your power over me

To change the way I see myself

But my power is strong now

And it chooses to say no

To your power over me