Joyful Ruins

And then

the loneliness

hit me

like a tidal wave

Too busy before

to notice

Somewhere new

Beginning again

It’s the moments you take

to slow down

I was watching tv

and felt the loss of my parents

then I realized

I am alone again

and will be for the foreseeable future

I know it won’t always be like this

and I’ll make friends

I’ll settle in

but the beginning is hard

You want to feel safe

You want to feel home

but it’s not home yet

No

That takes small steps

Pieces of furniture

Coffee shops visited

Favorite trails

Memories formed

with laugher

and loved ones

It’s getting there that is hard

Getting to that home feeling

Hold on

It’ll come

but cry for now