Joyful Ruins

I do want to feel it all

The lust

The anger

The compassion

and elation

I’ve bottled it up for so long

Now they must come out

for me to learn

who they are

and how they shape me

I was told to hide them

to only shine the light on

Forgiveness

Goodness

and submission

So many others

are far too ugly

to be loved

Lock the sorrow away

It does no good

Bury any sensual feeling

It is evil and destructive

Too many emotions

means you’re irrational

All these messages

about so many parts of me

No wonder I sometimes feel

like a teenager

making mistakes

acting out

learning the hard way

yet feeling freedom

and trying things out

I’d imagine

most of my emotions

have never grown up

because they’ve never been allowed

so here I am

growing up again

freeing every feeling

to be expressed

explored

and loved