trauma
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Broken Filter
It feels like the filter inside me is broken Instead of filtering out the bad and letting the good in It seems like it filters out the good and lets the bad in “The bad” far outweighs any good “The bad” means something is wrong with me even when the good is present “The bad” Continue reading
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Stuck
I guess I feel “normal” a lot but some places I get stuck Like why am I single? Why do I feel unloved? Friendships hurt and I feel alone The biggest stuck may be that I assume my purpose in life is to struggle and no one wants to hear or see the real me Continue reading
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Responding to church hurt
How do you respond to church hurt? Constantly I see it written that church community will improve my life, will give me family, support and healing. I know that can be true. I know there are christian communities out there who do exemplify Christ, who are family, unconditionally loving BUT I also know the majority Continue reading
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Conflict can Heal
I used to be a conflict avoider. I did not physically avoid conflict, but internally I did. If anyone had conflict with me, I’d go straight to denying, shaming, and abandoning myself. The other person always “won”, because I would run away from even trying. I still tend to this pattern within conflict. However, I Continue reading
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Who was I? Who am I? Who will I be?
Who am I? To answer such a question, I must ask another. Who was I? A little girl who dreamed of being a mermaid. A girl who wanted to be lived, loved, and chosen A girl who felt special deep within but felt invisible deeply with out. A girl with so much to say and Continue reading
About Me
An obsessive journaler who loves meeting others along their journey and giving them a hand to hold through pieces of writing. I write about the heartbreaks of life and the joys, the ups and downs, and I often learn my greatest lessons and miracles from nature.
Joyful Ruins 